Recently i have been thinking about the consequences of the fall which i know kinda encompasses all sin and damnation which isn't to be made little of because it meant the lord Jesus had to die for our sins.
The way its hit me recently though is in the awareness of self sense. It kinda began to hit me a few months ago when I was writing one of my assignments on how people tell stories to recreate how people see them.
One of the people i quoted made a comment about how people are only made aware of their own appearance and representation by how they see others. This reminds me of Adam and Eve when they were filled with shame about their naked bodies.
I think the thing is we look at other people and critique their appearance or how they come across and subconsciously we think they are doing the same to us. Does this mean that we all need to jus think less about judging people and how we appear.
In all honesty I think that we tend to get caught up so much in the superficial that we negate to focus on our development as a person. I know its not true of everybody but I think I'm starting to be more honest to myself about how I see things and it scares me that I could really be like that. I feel like I'm beginning to see how counter productive self awareness is. How harmful knowledge can be.
It's like when humanity fell and died spiritually we all gained a naive belief that knowledge is a good thing when really God wanted us to be safe in a dependence on his love and grace that didn't need justification and that we couldn't use earthly knowledge to deceive our selves, in our earthly attempts to live in sin and to be ignorant to his grace.
So because of this isn't knowledge in many ways just a synonym for temptation. The more we know the more arrogant we become and the more self righteous. we get to a point in our own sin that we really believe that don't need God.
For this reason I feel like earthly knowledge is kinda pointless, and I know I'm using knowledge as a broad term but i don't know how else to describe what I mean. I'm just on a journey to depend more on the Lord and pray he would reveal things to me at the right times that I may be used by him.
Sorry if I'm at all repetitive but I pray the Lord would use this to and bless you in his righteousness and the might of his glory, Amen.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Motivation?
mmm...
Ironically it has taken me three days to be motivated enough to articulate my recent rambling thoughts on motivation!
From listening to various sermons by people at Mars Hill Seattle (http://www.marshillchurch.org/media/midweek-classes). I have been motivated to think about my own motivation for life and self improvement.
Culture either pushes our motivation to self improvement to be focused on the aesthetic as though the character of a person is negligible comparable to how they look. Where as the bible tells us that "Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised" and "The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom".
With this in mind what motivates us I know that myself I'm so often preoccupied by how I think others perceive me. So much so that I have spent months of my life thinking about what I can do to improve myself in the eyes of the person I'm especially fond of. With no consideration to what about when they aren't there and the lasting effect of the change.
I know how I have focused so much on the development of my self confidence based on the opinion of one person that now he is taken out of the equation I'm left thinking how much of a fool I have been.
That despite knowing my worth as a daughter of the living God; that the lord loved me enough to send his son to die for my sins. That my opinion of my self as a physical being should be based on the lord having made me beautiful and not that a guy thinks I am.
Now having learn a lesson I always thought i wouldn't need to learn, I'm humbled.
I know the lord made me as he intended and that in him my image is as it should be.
That one day there will be a man of the lord, that the lord has put aside for me.
But until that day I know that my motivation to change shouldn't be focused on my appearance, or my confidence in my self worth based on my appearance.
It should be based on the improvement on my heart and character.
That my heart would reflect the love of Christ.
That my motivation would be to love the Lord more.
That the desires of my heart would be to grow in character; that I would fear the lord.
That the motivation of my heart to do so would grow with each day that I would know that my home is in his house!
Praise the lord that despite my earthly nature that his grace is so much vaster than my comprehension; that despite the limitations of my humanity i can grow to know and love him more by the overwhelming power of his name and blood by which i am saved!
Hallelujah!!
Ironically it has taken me three days to be motivated enough to articulate my recent rambling thoughts on motivation!
From listening to various sermons by people at Mars Hill Seattle (http://www.marshillchurch.org/media/midweek-classes). I have been motivated to think about my own motivation for life and self improvement.
Culture either pushes our motivation to self improvement to be focused on the aesthetic as though the character of a person is negligible comparable to how they look. Where as the bible tells us that "Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised" and "The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom".
With this in mind what motivates us I know that myself I'm so often preoccupied by how I think others perceive me. So much so that I have spent months of my life thinking about what I can do to improve myself in the eyes of the person I'm especially fond of. With no consideration to what about when they aren't there and the lasting effect of the change.
I know how I have focused so much on the development of my self confidence based on the opinion of one person that now he is taken out of the equation I'm left thinking how much of a fool I have been.
That despite knowing my worth as a daughter of the living God; that the lord loved me enough to send his son to die for my sins. That my opinion of my self as a physical being should be based on the lord having made me beautiful and not that a guy thinks I am.
Now having learn a lesson I always thought i wouldn't need to learn, I'm humbled.
I know the lord made me as he intended and that in him my image is as it should be.
That one day there will be a man of the lord, that the lord has put aside for me.
But until that day I know that my motivation to change shouldn't be focused on my appearance, or my confidence in my self worth based on my appearance.
It should be based on the improvement on my heart and character.
That my heart would reflect the love of Christ.
That my motivation would be to love the Lord more.
That the desires of my heart would be to grow in character; that I would fear the lord.
That the motivation of my heart to do so would grow with each day that I would know that my home is in his house!
Praise the lord that despite my earthly nature that his grace is so much vaster than my comprehension; that despite the limitations of my humanity i can grow to know and love him more by the overwhelming power of his name and blood by which i am saved!
Hallelujah!!
Friday, September 18, 2009
notes...
..is the point of this to make notes on ur life?
Seasons of change kinda requires that you know what you need to change.. Doesn't it?
Or at least that u jus give your self to God so wholly that he has full reign n can show you where you have screwed up!- kinda a funny one its the most logical thing to do in the long run but at the same time we kick up such a fuss about it - well i know i do.
The beauty of giving yourself over to God is that he honor's it and living in his will for your life is the most liberating yet challenging thing you can do.
Accepting that his will is bigger than what we can comprehend, that no matter how much we screw up he loves us so much that if we give ourselves to him he stops us encountering more than we can handle (1corinthians10v13) and then he uses that for his glory and building up character to make integral witnesses of those who love him.
Isn't his grace beautiful?..
..that "we know that in all things the lord works for the good of those who love him and are called according to his purpose."(romans8v28)
Kinda on a personal note I've realized that indulging in sin has not only stunted the active growth of my faith n love of the lord, but has in a active life sense undone the action in my life of those things that i know the lord had changed in me. As in i know he changed me but when i didnt live in his love and grace and mercy i stopped living in those changes and am now finding that i have to relearn old lessons! but by his grace n mercy he is patient n will give me the second chance.
Or as it may be in some cases..
a third..
forth...
fifth chance!
so many chances i cant count that i don't deserve but his grace n mercy n love is so vast that i cant even comprehend it, and at the same time that i abuse it so much make me sad.
i think the worst part is to think that every thing that seems so little..
off thoughts..
disrespecting authority..
thinking about people as more than they are to you..
lust..
Even all these things that are inside that don't even have to come out in word or deed to be are dirt to God. They cause our separation to God. They cost Jesus his life. They made the son of God separate to God by making him into our sin! my sin.
Yet despite all this.
God loves us so much that he willed it to be.
He Gave His Perfect Pure Holy Righteous Son...
To become sin!
To become our shame, condemnation, deceit, lies, lust, selfishness.
How Holy is our God?
How much Grace?
We cant begin to imagine the whole of God.
But praise the lord that he loves us this much and gives us the option and choice to obay him in love and to chose to love him and spend eternity basking in his presence.
:D !!!!!!!!HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!! :D
**FB 0010 18thsept2009**
Seasons of change kinda requires that you know what you need to change.. Doesn't it?
Or at least that u jus give your self to God so wholly that he has full reign n can show you where you have screwed up!- kinda a funny one its the most logical thing to do in the long run but at the same time we kick up such a fuss about it - well i know i do.
The beauty of giving yourself over to God is that he honor's it and living in his will for your life is the most liberating yet challenging thing you can do.
Accepting that his will is bigger than what we can comprehend, that no matter how much we screw up he loves us so much that if we give ourselves to him he stops us encountering more than we can handle (1corinthians10v13) and then he uses that for his glory and building up character to make integral witnesses of those who love him.
Isn't his grace beautiful?..
..that "we know that in all things the lord works for the good of those who love him and are called according to his purpose."(romans8v28)
Kinda on a personal note I've realized that indulging in sin has not only stunted the active growth of my faith n love of the lord, but has in a active life sense undone the action in my life of those things that i know the lord had changed in me. As in i know he changed me but when i didnt live in his love and grace and mercy i stopped living in those changes and am now finding that i have to relearn old lessons! but by his grace n mercy he is patient n will give me the second chance.
Or as it may be in some cases..
a third..
forth...
fifth chance!
so many chances i cant count that i don't deserve but his grace n mercy n love is so vast that i cant even comprehend it, and at the same time that i abuse it so much make me sad.
i think the worst part is to think that every thing that seems so little..
off thoughts..
disrespecting authority..
thinking about people as more than they are to you..
lust..
Even all these things that are inside that don't even have to come out in word or deed to be are dirt to God. They cause our separation to God. They cost Jesus his life. They made the son of God separate to God by making him into our sin! my sin.
Yet despite all this.
God loves us so much that he willed it to be.
He Gave His Perfect Pure Holy Righteous Son...
To become sin!
To become our shame, condemnation, deceit, lies, lust, selfishness.
How Holy is our God?
How much Grace?
We cant begin to imagine the whole of God.
But praise the lord that he loves us this much and gives us the option and choice to obay him in love and to chose to love him and spend eternity basking in his presence.
:D !!!!!!!!HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!! :D
**FB 0010 18thsept2009**
Seasons of Change
I am really sad in a sado sense n wanted to share my weridio lifo blerb.
The love of the lord is sooo amazing and thats the best part, I dont know what i would do without him.
Over the summer i got distracted by my own sinful nature n neglected the lord in my life.
I told myself so many times i would change failed every time from trying to do it in my own strength.
Then over the last few days i have gone from the most emotional i have pretty much ever been!!
to hearing the lord speak into my life again, for the first time audibly for like a month! (missed him)
Now i have begun the process of getting out of my indulging in sin
and back to focus on the lord and his hand in my life!
As a consequence might have lost the best friend i have ever been blessed with!
But i know that the Lords heart for me is greater than anything i could plan for myself
Now i just have to wait on him, n try n learn patience for the first time in 20 yrs!!
Well the lord can do anything. (fortunately other wise Lillie = stuffed)
**mm directly coppied from FB notes from 2am 17th sept 2009**
The love of the lord is sooo amazing and thats the best part, I dont know what i would do without him.
Over the summer i got distracted by my own sinful nature n neglected the lord in my life.
I told myself so many times i would change failed every time from trying to do it in my own strength.
Then over the last few days i have gone from the most emotional i have pretty much ever been!!
to hearing the lord speak into my life again, for the first time audibly for like a month! (missed him)
Now i have begun the process of getting out of my indulging in sin
and back to focus on the lord and his hand in my life!
As a consequence might have lost the best friend i have ever been blessed with!
But i know that the Lords heart for me is greater than anything i could plan for myself
Now i just have to wait on him, n try n learn patience for the first time in 20 yrs!!
Well the lord can do anything. (fortunately other wise Lillie = stuffed)
**mm directly coppied from FB notes from 2am 17th sept 2009**
The Introduction!
Hello!
I am Lillie,
I like to talk a lot,
I also love God,
I love his love n grace n mercy n just generally Him!
Sooo i started jus thinking about how great he is and how much is is doing in my life and started a note on FB yesterday... then did another one today... then thought its a bit silly... may as well start a blog?! why not! so here I am... tho to be honest the sound of a blog sounds a bit official to me so i call it a blerb! Cos its just lillie ramble, and if you were with me n i gotta rambling this is what would blerb out!
Well i hope that these thoughts and experiences of the lord are a blessing and encouragement.
I also pray that they may help people that havent met Jesus know how he is Alive, with us and what he did for us when he roamed the earth.
Well May God bless you abundantly!
Lils
I am Lillie,
I like to talk a lot,
I also love God,
I love his love n grace n mercy n just generally Him!
Sooo i started jus thinking about how great he is and how much is is doing in my life and started a note on FB yesterday... then did another one today... then thought its a bit silly... may as well start a blog?! why not! so here I am... tho to be honest the sound of a blog sounds a bit official to me so i call it a blerb! Cos its just lillie ramble, and if you were with me n i gotta rambling this is what would blerb out!
Well i hope that these thoughts and experiences of the lord are a blessing and encouragement.
I also pray that they may help people that havent met Jesus know how he is Alive, with us and what he did for us when he roamed the earth.
Well May God bless you abundantly!
Lils
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