the price n effects of sin :S

Hi,

I hope this is different,

well the theme would be thought and sin.

and consequences!

To me when I think about sin, I do that thing I think we all do, saying one is better or worse or more acceptable than another, but to God they are all the same.

I think more often than not when we look at what we are doing, when we are trying not to mess up we tend to see action as more of the issue. This misses out how apathy can be just as sinful as action. To negate action when you know your letting something that isn't of God happen, then its sin!

This sin of apathy can then spread into other sins that we are less able to discard.

In my own life my apathy turned into sin and I am living with the consequences of those things i should never have allowed happen. Which due to my own lac of integrity and action, have consumed my life for so long.

See despite being forgiven for my sins, and forgiving those who sin against me the consequences of my sin are still there. The habits that I took up when I was apathetic have stretched deep into my life that some despite not being habitual any longer I struggle to not do due to the hold it once had on my life. And the emotional and psychological scars and effects of my own sin still have a hold and I still fight against. I live in the faith that the Lord will heal my heart from these consequences of my own sin, and pray he would give me the patience to wait on his timing.

I pray the Lord would bless you and guide you away from this sin of apathy.

Getting in the way :S

Lil's been a bit of a state most of her life and is on a mission to change!

Might sound silly, but I've kinda come to the conclusion that the majority of my blerb to date has been my being a emotional state and proclaiming the truths I know of the lord that despite what I'm going through He is Good and Sovereign, and that in everything he works for the good of those who love him and are called according to his purpose. Which is true and biblical. I hope that despite my humanity and emotional nature that you will have been encouraged by the lords work in my life.

Despite aiming to encourage I have started to think that this blerb might not be a good idea, because in the process of recapping all of what I feel I am learning it feels as though it is indulging in my humanity and not the lords strength in me which is greater than all else.

I may continue to write on here on occasion though it will not be in the same way, I don't know how it will be yet.

As it is with me and my heart, I have come to the realisation that close friends of the opposite gender isn't a good idea full stop, it's too messy and I don't mean I don't believe people can be close friends I'm just realising how much further back I have to draw the lines in my friendships, and that until I know its of the lord and in his timing for me to consider a relationship then I'm aspiring to change the way I think that its not a issue in the way I think and feel and I pray the lord will help me to change that.

I may try and "get in the way" of someone in a Ruth sense, but its coming from a place of faith that if its of the lord it will come into fruition and if it is not then the lord will change my heart from where it is now.

I have been blessed with such a abundance of female friends the lord has really answered my prayers last year I felt so isolated and this year I'm blessed.

I'm sorry if that is more of a ramble than intended.

I pray the lord would bless you and keep you all

and that the lord would help us to all change more into his likeness.

Freedom and Faith

lol, loving alliteration :) (= English geek)

Well I've had quite a day..

Was taken completely off guard by an apology that may have been months in the making, but made me feel from a blame that had been put on me almost all year.

I'm so happy that it is finally happened, I knew God could do it but had no idea it would be now, had been praying about it for months, but who knows God's timing hey!

Now I feel free, from the sin that it was bound to, and the bitterness it made me feel toward the person that said it.

Mmm.. today isn't going to be high in detail, suppose that's a good thing.

I'm really happy, Seeing Gods hand in my life.

Knowing his will for my life is perfect, and better than anything I could imagine.

I'm still feeling pain as the consequences of my own sin, but I know all things are possible in Christ, he can redeem all things, and the things we see as impossible are possible in him!!

Today was just the start!

Hallelujah!

Where You Go I Go!

Loving the Lord :)

Mmmm...

..The spiritual high may have been a long time forcast, but i think it may have finally arrived :)

Hallelujah!!

Having spent a weekend in a state of physical depletion and emotional exhaustion, whilst at the CU's weekend away, I felt the lord open my heart and eyes in worship like he hasn't for months.

With all the emotional issues I have indulged in over the last few months I hadn't drew or painted or felt completely resigned in worship like I have the past weekend.

As my pictures are a overflow of my heart for God it is really significant to me to be able to draw again.

sooo I ammm sooooo happy :)

this weekend I have drawn like three different things all to Gods glory and I love worshipping him through my art.

I also love singing!

Despite thinking I'm pants!

I cant match the peace and complete contented joy I feel when I'm singing my lungs out in complete surrender to the Lord!

What a weekend!

May have had a few emotional melt downs to my complete exhaustion and feeling at the end of myself but that's what needed to happen for me to feel this close to God!

For weeks I have been praying for a desperation of spirit..

.. despite praying it I have been so scared about what it would take for the Lord to get me to that place of complete surrender.

As it is it took me losing the closest thing to me and not having time to do anything that I love to do, so having spent a month stressing out, praying for sustenance and hoping it would all just stop so that I could breath and look at the cross..

.. but it's helped me realise that the cross is as true and important in those busy times, its a head to heart knowledge thing.. I know in my head that the cross has all the answers.. but in my head it takes to get to the end of my self and to depend on the lord fully, to see just some of the extent of his mercy and love and grace for the context of my daily surrender, and to submit all my ways and thoughts to him that I wouldn't become bitter or pained or spiteful that I would trust in his sovereignty in my life.

Now having got to a place of knowing in my heart more of his love and the power of that where I am I am happy and truly contented in my spirit and heart that no matter what the world throw's at me the Lord Jesus My Saviour and King is bigger than anything that the devil has for me.

So I pray that as I feel so built in the Lord that he would use me and strengthen me in him,

that as the enemy will attack, that I might depend on Christ more, and know more of the power and authority of His name in my life.

The name of this post comes from the song sung by Jesus Culture - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c2U3PU-E32E&feature=related

What a life to live, in Him, for Him, about Him!

Hallelujah!

Our God reigns!

He is our Soverign King!

Messiah!

Holy!

Blameless!

Praise the lord that we may dwell in his presence and in fellowship, with him, through his spirit, all our days.

Hallelujah :)

confused-the-meerkat.com

I'm confused!

Was wondering if anyone could help?

Over the past few days i have been listening to a friend talk on the topic of being a new creation, and I have been listening to sermons that contain information that seems to contradict my friend n I'm confused between the two arguments.

I thought perhaps if I shared them someone might give feedback!

I might be being really dim but it is conflicting in my head n i thought this was the best way to ask.

Argument one:

We are sinners saved by grace!

Despite our salvation we are still sinners and innately sinful and challenged by human weakness.

That we have to pray for the continued transformation into the likeness and that being washed in his blood and clothed in his righteousness we can come before him and ask for forgiveness and guidance despite our human weakness.

Argument two:

We were sinners but are redeemed by grace!

That in being born again as a new creation we are no longer in need of transformation nor innately sinful. That in our new form we are completely redeemed and need to live in that redemption and to pray to be transformed into the likeness of Christ is to deny what he did for us on the cross.

I don't know if anyone has any opinions?

Im feeling a little like a confused meerkat but God is good and his truth will stand firm it may be a combination of the two but as it is I am lost and hope someone would be able to shed some lite on it for me.

Thank you.

God bless x

Consequences..

The consequence of sin is death!!
... basic Christian principle.

Dieing to self and living for Christ..
... = Eternal Life!!!!

Eternity...

Revelation 20v ..
¹¹Then I saw a great white throne and him who was seated on it. Earth and sky fled from his presence, and there was no place for them. ¹²And I saw the dead, great and small, standing before the throne, and books were opened. Another book was opened, which is the book of life. The dead were judged according to what they had done as recorded in the books. ¹³The sea gave up the dead that were in it, and death and Hades gave up the dead that were in them, and each person was judged according to what he had done. ¹⁴Then death and Hades were thrown into the lake of fire. The lake of fire is the second death. ¹⁵If anyone's name was not found written in the book of life, he was thrown into the lake of fire.

Second death = eternity in torment

Death to self n life in christ = one death to self, no second death, = name in lambs book of life!

If this is the consequences why are we so careless with the souls of others?

Why arn't we fighting to share the lord in every way we can, with everyone we can, in any way we can????

How selfish are we really that we can know Christ and the consequences of our sin and what we have been saved from and not care about sharing the gift with others?????

Even if he hadn't commanded us to go out into all the world and preach the gospel, shouldnt we want to share what he has given enough to do it out of our joy??

As he asks us to go out n preach his word shouldn't that just give us more of a incentive???

I pray that in obedience we would all seek to share him with those we encounter in our daily lives that we would be a living example of his love and grace not that we are proud or perfect but that all that we are is made right in him and that we would love him and share him with thouse around us by his grace through his love and peace. Amen.

Hidden Truthes

In April before i went to India i was staying at my friends house and i felt like God was really speaking to me through the lyrics of a secular song. It might not seem that much of a biggy but at the time it really hit me about how we get so caught up in the romantic notions of our heads that we miss that the Greatest love story ever told is that of Jesus and his love for his bride the church which we are a part of!

The Turtles - Happy Together ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZnNIx-NRdoI&feature=related )
Might sound like a funny song to think wow that's Gods affection for me but it really hit me how depending on the Lord is such a gift of his love and if we depend on him the way he wants us to in his love that it is all worth it.

When lookin for a link with the words i found this ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BDQ5kt4BYnI&feature=related ) which is a flobot version which really amused me because its like from the simplicity about a song that is jus about how a love was predestined and just untimely and right to over complicating it and making it so much more complicated than God intended it to be.

It encourages us to indulge in our sinful hearts, reenforcing that are adulterous and make us think that what we feel can lead our lifes when in God we have to know that somethings are true despite our feelings, and that despite the fluctuations of our affections, Gods love is all we need to hold on to and that when we have lost that that is when we truely have nothing.

The Hoosiers - Clinging on for Life (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qzLKMuyonqw )
When i have listened to this song ive always loved how meldious it is. Then last night i was getting ready for bed n i literally couldnt get it out of my head.
It really hit me when i was listening to it and looking at the lyrics that in our lives it can so easily be about how we are with God and with him as love.

When it speaks of Love - "I need you to reach me, teach me, how to love" God is love we cant learn about him if we dont draw close to him. and we cant truely love people without his love in our lives.

I also feel like the reason we need to "cling on for life" is because in our lives it is so easily to get distracted by other things that take our attention off God things that we need to cling on to his love to live the lives he intended for us.

Then when it says about how "made enough mistakes between the two of us to sink this thing" despite it being in the plural giving shared blame i think we can often miss that it is our own faults, like now im realising yes i have screwed up majourly yet again but at the same time the Lord has given me the strength and the faith to cling on for life that i would truly depend on him and know that despite everything he still loves me and i can still draw close to him.

I think its awesome how vast the Love of God is and how despite everything we can see snippits of his love in things all around us even in secular song lyrics.

Praise the lord oh my soul, may i praise the name of the lord all the days of my life and rejoice in his blessings and grace through every trial, that i may grow in faith and dependance on him and his awesome love amen.