the price n effects of sin :S

Hi,

I hope this is different,

well the theme would be thought and sin.

and consequences!

To me when I think about sin, I do that thing I think we all do, saying one is better or worse or more acceptable than another, but to God they are all the same.

I think more often than not when we look at what we are doing, when we are trying not to mess up we tend to see action as more of the issue. This misses out how apathy can be just as sinful as action. To negate action when you know your letting something that isn't of God happen, then its sin!

This sin of apathy can then spread into other sins that we are less able to discard.

In my own life my apathy turned into sin and I am living with the consequences of those things i should never have allowed happen. Which due to my own lac of integrity and action, have consumed my life for so long.

See despite being forgiven for my sins, and forgiving those who sin against me the consequences of my sin are still there. The habits that I took up when I was apathetic have stretched deep into my life that some despite not being habitual any longer I struggle to not do due to the hold it once had on my life. And the emotional and psychological scars and effects of my own sin still have a hold and I still fight against. I live in the faith that the Lord will heal my heart from these consequences of my own sin, and pray he would give me the patience to wait on his timing.

I pray the Lord would bless you and guide you away from this sin of apathy.

Getting in the way :S

Lil's been a bit of a state most of her life and is on a mission to change!

Might sound silly, but I've kinda come to the conclusion that the majority of my blerb to date has been my being a emotional state and proclaiming the truths I know of the lord that despite what I'm going through He is Good and Sovereign, and that in everything he works for the good of those who love him and are called according to his purpose. Which is true and biblical. I hope that despite my humanity and emotional nature that you will have been encouraged by the lords work in my life.

Despite aiming to encourage I have started to think that this blerb might not be a good idea, because in the process of recapping all of what I feel I am learning it feels as though it is indulging in my humanity and not the lords strength in me which is greater than all else.

I may continue to write on here on occasion though it will not be in the same way, I don't know how it will be yet.

As it is with me and my heart, I have come to the realisation that close friends of the opposite gender isn't a good idea full stop, it's too messy and I don't mean I don't believe people can be close friends I'm just realising how much further back I have to draw the lines in my friendships, and that until I know its of the lord and in his timing for me to consider a relationship then I'm aspiring to change the way I think that its not a issue in the way I think and feel and I pray the lord will help me to change that.

I may try and "get in the way" of someone in a Ruth sense, but its coming from a place of faith that if its of the lord it will come into fruition and if it is not then the lord will change my heart from where it is now.

I have been blessed with such a abundance of female friends the lord has really answered my prayers last year I felt so isolated and this year I'm blessed.

I'm sorry if that is more of a ramble than intended.

I pray the lord would bless you and keep you all

and that the lord would help us to all change more into his likeness.