Mmmm...
..The spiritual high may have been a long time forcast, but i think it may have finally arrived :)
Hallelujah!!
Having spent a weekend in a state of physical depletion and emotional exhaustion, whilst at the CU's weekend away, I felt the lord open my heart and eyes in worship like he hasn't for months.
With all the emotional issues I have indulged in over the last few months I hadn't drew or painted or felt completely resigned in worship like I have the past weekend.
As my pictures are a overflow of my heart for God it is really significant to me to be able to draw again.
sooo I ammm sooooo happy :)
this weekend I have drawn like three different things all to Gods glory and I love worshipping him through my art.
I also love singing!
Despite thinking I'm pants!
I cant match the peace and complete contented joy I feel when I'm singing my lungs out in complete surrender to the Lord!
What a weekend!
May have had a few emotional melt downs to my complete exhaustion and feeling at the end of myself but that's what needed to happen for me to feel this close to God!
For weeks I have been praying for a desperation of spirit..
.. despite praying it I have been so scared about what it would take for the Lord to get me to that place of complete surrender.
As it is it took me losing the closest thing to me and not having time to do anything that I love to do, so having spent a month stressing out, praying for sustenance and hoping it would all just stop so that I could breath and look at the cross..
.. but it's helped me realise that the cross is as true and important in those busy times, its a head to heart knowledge thing.. I know in my head that the cross has all the answers.. but in my head it takes to get to the end of my self and to depend on the lord fully, to see just some of the extent of his mercy and love and grace for the context of my daily surrender, and to submit all my ways and thoughts to him that I wouldn't become bitter or pained or spiteful that I would trust in his sovereignty in my life.
Now having got to a place of knowing in my heart more of his love and the power of that where I am I am happy and truly contented in my spirit and heart that no matter what the world throw's at me the Lord Jesus My Saviour and King is bigger than anything that the devil has for me.
So I pray that as I feel so built in the Lord that he would use me and strengthen me in him,
that as the enemy will attack, that I might depend on Christ more, and know more of the power and authority of His name in my life.
The name of this post comes from the song sung by Jesus Culture - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c2U3PU-E32E&feature=related
What a life to live, in Him, for Him, about Him!
Hallelujah!
Our God reigns!
He is our Soverign King!
Messiah!
Holy!
Blameless!
Praise the lord that we may dwell in his presence and in fellowship, with him, through his spirit, all our days.
Hallelujah :)
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